Just one ticket!

It’s empowering; it’s exhilarating; and above all, it’s enlightening.
You know those days when you really want to do something, and only that one thing? And you don’t end up doing it because you didn’t have anyone to do it with? Or maybe you were dependent on someone in some way that restricted your arms from spreading wide and tied your feet to the floor, stopping you from that flight.
Just get up and fly. It’s that simple.
I sat home for quite some time whining about how none of my friends are available when I really am in a mood to get out of the house, or about how I cannot drive to places I’d like to go to, and how I kept missing out on my life. Instead of sitting at the bus stop, and hoping that the bus would stop on seeing me, all I needed to do was get up and wave frantically until the bus driver had no other choice but to bow down to me and open that door!
I went alone to watch a movie today. The Break-Up. Total chic flick that I’m sure none of my friends were too inclined to watch. I could have let go of it just like the several other movies I miss out on with excuses that I’d watch it when it’s on DVD, or it wasn’t going to be that great a movie anyway. I decided, instead, on treating myself.
I took my ipod, and listening to Lucky Ali, walked to Barnes and Nobles. I read a bit until it was time for me to catch my bus (with those doors wide open) to the theater. After some walking, I got to the theater, feeling a bit nervous to ask for just one ticket. However, I don’t think the guy at the counter gave a damn, and then neither did I. I walked out of there with my head lifted high, involuntarily and happily walking straight-backed for the first time in my life.
I could hear the absurdity in those rumors of how I "stepped over" people in school to get to where I was. How is that possible if you don’t even cheat! It didn’t matter any more whether I looked ugly to the world, or whether people would think I’m a loser for going alone. I made that choice. I enjoyed my own company, I felt bonded with myself, and I did not need to fake a conversation with anyone to have them accompany me.
I smiled while I walked through the mall today, and maybe somebody else saw me, and felt empowered to ask for just one ticket.